Speak of suicide.

Speak of Suicide.

Years ago, many years ago I had read that if someone speaks about suicide that they are not truly going to do it. Thinking about that, I wonder if it is so?

If I speak about taking my life, does that mean I won't?
I don't agree with it.

I have dealt with my own trials in life.
Most recently especially.
After having come back from war - I feel as if my life has taken a cycle, has turned into something different. This is something I don't tell anyone, I keep it to myself, no one knows.

There do come times when you can't get images out of your head,
when all you see are the images of people dieing,
of death,
of a life that you question,
of actions that you know you never should have taken,
of a world you still don't understand.

I have thought of taking my life, ive thought about it so many times.
Now I speak of it, does that take away from it's meaning?

I don't know if war made me who I am. Or if I made war what it is...
All I can tell you is that the man that I am now, is a man I think I have become - -

- mr. E